Turn Back The Time !

If I can turn back the time, this will never happened to me. Even my mother hard to accept it and so do I. I don't believe this will happen to me. I had promise to myself that I would never leave my lover but it'll happen when I know that I had this sickness. It's happened to fast. Day by day i'm afraid. I'm afraid to lose all people that  I really love. I hate when my life ended with sadness ! This really was not FAIR ! It's hard to find happiness in my life. WHY?

              When I behave well and honest, all the responses I got was grief and penal. Did I'm a very evil person??? I don't know how to smoke,drink alcohol.gamble or kill people. I'm not a bad boy ! I'm complains because I can't stand by myself. I always pray and work hard but it was the same. Many people said that I am a perfect guy and a lucky son but the reality it was not.

               I wish I can turn back the time because I feel it was to close to me. I don't want it will happen. Please God. Save me!

Am better off a quitter?

The reason why i don't talk when i'm down is because telling them won't change a goddamn thing and there's no reason for me to bring them down as well, so I'll rather keep everything to myself. There's no need for people to know why I'm sad or why I'm act like this or like that. My story sucks and boring.

When God closes a door ,He opens another door, a new door. But the door can't replace the memories I had. And now here I am begging on my knees for Him to reopen my door.

Am better off a quitter?

When its come to me.

I'm dying inside 

But I still want to smile

I'll still laughing 

I'll survive with it about a year

Just don't look into my eyes.

What's on my mind?

First , Hello ? heh ,
1.Forget password :(
Hello readers.  Can't update my blog for a long time. Why? because I forget my password and every time I want sharing my stories , I can't share but never mind. Now, I can blogging.  :D

2.Regreting
Okey. Since I forget my password and i can't blogging, a trouble came. See the word 'REGRETING' ? Actually , I got a big trouble with my girlfriend . (18th February). I'm a liar. I lie  to her and one day she know that i lies her. I feel so stupid ! Why not i just follow my cousin advise?I should tell her early and stop keeping secrets from her. The day that she knows about it, i didn't know that she knew it until I suspect something happened to my cousin. In the early morning , i checked my cousin's phone and saw their conversations. Then, I told the true to her and the next day we break up because i want it but my heart doesn't . I know she cried and angry. THE END .
wait, wait ,wait
For you infomation , i'm still in relationship with her. We just break up for 3 hours . Hehe. ''Rasa sayang saya mengatasi segalanya.'' thats was the sentences she gave to me. She forgive me and i'm happy but i can forgive myself until now.I brought she break up but i took back. YEAH !
last,
 ILOVEHERSOMUCH WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL :D

3.TESTING , TESTING , TESTING
Emm..testing one . she unbelieve me. I mean she feel doubt about me. just because her  friends. Until one day, she testing,testing,testing. Hhaha .. but she still believe me. erm,why?because I didn't lie her again when she were testing me.

4. I told the truth .
Emmm... when I calling with her then i'm ready to tell the truth . i'm HAPPY ! Now she know the truth .